Created, Sustained and Destroyed.

GG says:

I am confused, provoked, insulted and annoyed by an event that had occurred a few weeks back. This blog has been etched out of feelings of personal pain and anguish.

So what is it Dear N? What is it that u desire from HM? HM and I had considered you as a friend, a good friend like your roommate S.

I was happy that HM had found the AOL sessions interesting and was enjoying the course. It was the start of a cherished friendship between U and HM. He was impressed by the way you wrote and had soon developed a liking towards your thoughts. HM would come home and tell me about time spent with you. Your taste in music and movies, thoughts about life, mediation, and the capacity to philosophize.

But there was something strange; strange about the way you were interacting with him. As a woman I could realize the change in dynamics. I did question HM a few times about the thoughts in your mind. He told me it had emanated from a broken relationship with your ex and the way he had treated you.

HM and I have had a few conversations and tried to reason as to why you were behaving in such a manner. You had suddenly changed from being a friend to someone who was portraying HM as her lover/soul mate. It was an unhealthy obsession for something that was never going to materialize. You knew that HM was in a relationship with me. We belonged to each other and HM had always made that clear to you. It is in HM’s nature to be playful and mischievous but that did not imply he was interested in U.

It was evident that the two of you were spending time together, to US you were a FRIEND but I guess to you HM was tagged as SOULMATE and I did not exist.

Unfortunately I do exist and I did meet you last Fall. I could see it in your eyes, please don’t deny it. Every time HM held me, I could see the hurt in your eyes. You weren’t as happy to see me as the rest of HM’s friends. HM and I had realized there was something wrong.

Days passed, things got busy and deadlines had to be met. The friendship would have existed if you hadn’t mentioned this.

“And you, HM. What do you think of yourself, buddy? My excellent, charming friend, you, for whom I decided to only be the best ever friend so that I don't make the mistake of sacrificing a blossoming friendship for potential love, what have you turned into? And why do you hurt me so? (I wonder at this juncture, Nature, why it is becoming a trend, one which I greatly dislike by the way, that people rush off in a hurry exactly after I admit to myself that they are an important part of my life? It is highly unflattering to myself.) Who are you with anyway, I mean seriously? What are you thinking? Collect all those explanations and run along now. “

HM wasn’t ignoring you, he was just busy. But you, I guess did not have the emotional capacity to function without him and hence made a huge mistake by making a public mockery of your friendship with HM.

Dear N, had you not seen the rings on our fingers? The strong bond and love between HM and I? Why then? Tell me. Why did u want to invade into the sanctity of our relationship? What is wrong? Why do you evade my questions?

I wonder, what happened to your morals? Why dint you talk to your friends and ask for help? J and S, you had met me, you knew what I meant to HM. Then why dint you advise N? Why did you not stop her from making this huge mistake?

Well, it’s too late now. You have sowed the seed of distrust. HM and I will always consider you as a friend, but you have destroyed the trust in this friendship forever.

If you were in my position, would you let your soul mate be someone else’s? I would not!

Well, it’s time for a walk and here’s the song that playing in my mind.

Radha

Madhuban mein jo Kanhaiya kisi gopi se mile

Kabhi muskaaye, kabhi chhede, kabhi baat kare

Radha kaise na jale, Radha kaise na jale

Aag tan mann mein lage

Radha kaise na jale, Radha kaise na jale

Kanha

Madhuban mein bhale Kaanha kisi gopi se mile

Mann mein to Radha ke hi prem ke hain phool khile

Kis liye Radha jale, kis liye Radha jale

Bina soche samjhe

Kis liye Radha jale, kis liye Radha jale

O, gopiyaan taarein hain, chaand hai Radha

Phir kyoon hai usko biswaas aadha.

Radha

Kaanhaji ka jo sadaa idhar udhar dhyaan rahe

Radha bechaari ko phir apne pe kya maan rahe

Kanha

Gopiyaan aani jaani hain, Radha to mann ki rani hai

Saanjh sakhaare, Jamna kinaare

Radha Radha hi Kaanha pukaare