"I AM HEATHCLIFF"

GG says:

“Rather cloudy, outbreaks of rain; another mild night!” ---Quintessential Yorkshire Autumn! The city was covered in a thick blanket of fog; an eerie Moorish feeling in the air.

9hrs in total, a retro transfection, 20 PCR reactions, a restriction double digest, couple of gels, 3 hectic hours of showing adolescent undergrads how to work with rat sperm and I was finally 10mins away from home. In an effort to keep myself busy, I had fatigued every brain cell in me. Everything felt vacant and pointless, I felt lonely following the trail beside the pond. Had no urge to get back home so I sat on the bench and decided to watch the ripples. There was a slight drizzle and microscopic droplets of rain hit my face. Wet, muggy, dull and dark! I felt a strange element of deja vu. What is it? Why do I feel this way? Where am I? Have I been here before?

HM do you remember? This is where you proposed.

I often come down to the spot and spend hours watching the ducks swim across the pond. Wish you were here. Wish I could feel you. Wish you could understand what I am going through. WISH.

HM and I had an argument last night; he slammed the door and walked out. Except for an email justifying his point I haven’t heard from him ever since.

I miss you. This is for you HM. This is how I feel today…….Catherine from Wuthering Heights.

Catherine Earnshaw, "If all else perished and HE remained, I

should still continue to be; and if all else remained and he were

annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger; I should not

seem part of it".

Catherine sees herself as an image of her love for Heathcliff and shouts “I AM HEATHCLIFF”. is a manifestation of Heathcliff, his match in body mind and soul. In the face of a common enemy they identify with one another, each of them find the norms of society as excruciating. She surrenders her identity and cosmos to become one with his. And here is a simple e.g. of her dignified passion for romance: she can feel his heartbeat while being clasped to his chest! She passionately yearns to be fulfilled, to give herself candidly to him and at the same time keep her identity. Her existence is blended with his; she loves him and is loved by him. In doing so, she shares his manly power and supremacy. It is when Heathcliff considers and accepts her as his true identity that she experiences true contentment. They have a strong feeling to be purely and wholly for each other. Lord David Cecil once commented “Thus, Catherine loves Heathcliff because as children of the storm they are bound by their similar natures. This is why Catherine says she loves Heathcliff ‘because he's more myself than I am. Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.’ As the expression of the principle of the storm, their love is, of course, neither sexual nor sensual.”

Their love endures on a spiritual plane; they are soul mates. Two people with a bond and affinity for each other. Binding them together irresistibly. It is a beautiful experience to be loved in this manner, endlessly, where nothing else in the world matters. Their love is eternal and she will forever remain dependent.

Come home HM, you are all I have. I am sorry. But I will stand by my argument; unfortunately the ground under your argument is far too shaky for me.

oops...poor Mr.Bernie, he must be starving!

HM

I'm home girl, wheres the food? :)